Monday, February 20, 2017

putting holes in happiness

i've always found it easier to deal with the pain of loss than the joy of gain. only in true moments of sadness have i felt genuinely; in joyous moments of ephemera, i've felt at a loss of any real emotion. any recollection of happiness has been both painful and surreal and that has only made me puke with anxiety in the wake of its fervent demise.

'There is an awful warmth about my heart like a load of immortality..'

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am truly sorry for all the pain I have caused you...don't know what I was thinking or doing..immaturity I think....don't expect forgiveness ..but I need to apologise...and I know that's not enough and never will be...

Anonymous said...

Wish you all the luck and success

scenes from a memory said...

why?

Anonymous said...

Closure...guilt..

scenes from a memory said...

hahahaha.. This one was nice.

Closure and guilt - such big words, but whatever makes you feel good.

fear innoculum

why? 'There is an awful warmth about my heart like a load of immortality..'